schooled.
ytd n today i v attentive
nv sleep at ol
nv put down my head on the table when the teacher is teaching
v good
v bad
good=work so hard for the first time
bad=tooo geek alr

haiz.......nv c her 2day
wonder how she is_-------.........

alright
now i had calm down so im goin to say what happen during the barbercue.......
i only tot that maybe he will come
coz daryl says his sister also got barbercue at the other side
tot only......
then about v later
liying,siew mei,yi hui and me go to the pool and play play
coz damm boring
and then!
when i stop playin liao
i came up from the pool and collect my slippers
i turn around...and i saw HIM!!!
the twins :)
i knw its them
they are with a huge bunch of friends
damm crazy lor
even though i didnt their faces
but i knew its them
immediately...
i run away with my slippers feeling abit dizzy
i dont dare to c them or let them c me lor
coz 1)i was just guessing...nv really expect them to really come
2)i so fat n ugly sia!! how can let him see me?!
3)im my legs start to feel numb..if i dont quickly run away,i will definately stand there like
a statue and wait for him and his whole bunch of friends and his twin brother to notice me!
4)my heart tells me to run.
Althought i nv saw his face
but im v v v v v v v contented already :)


PS: im not sure whether u are ok can ant



Another PS: i miss andrea
i miss regina
i miss queenie

last thursday saw him(finally)
last friday lost my mp4 and headphones
got beaten like bonker
i everytime say i want/wish to return to sec1
last thursday, to me is like a fantasy
suddenly...i tot like i was in sec1 again
is like at the barbercue....
first:im hangin out with yihui(sec1 friend)
second:tokin to liying quite alot(sec1 close friend)
third:suddenly i saw him!!!!
crazy sia....actually im not prepare 4 it lor

Then the next day
i lost my mp4
my mum beat me until like wat like tt
the beatin also felt the like sec1
my mum never beat me since sec1
only different is that tis time when i broke my parents heart
i can feel it
which i totally now dont want to go back to sec1 le
maybe im more mature now
but i hate to say tis lor
so mature=so old

but i cannot be so selfish la
my mum asked me to think of my dad.....

poor thing
52 years old le still must work under the hot sun
every single day work until so hard
but still got sooo much debts
my parents got sooo much debts because we(the children) are at fault
even they dont have money but they still go try their best to find money regardless of whether they the money from....
just to make us happy and buy what we love
so that when we come to school or go outside....
we look "in"

so from now onwards!
i will study hard!
make money!
be a strong and independent woman(like oprah)!
make lifes better for my parents!

tis is the day i will move on with my life
i must not stuck in the past
2day is 22/3/10 (if im not wrong)
2day im reborn(again)
2day is also the day liting reborn
coz she told me that she is goin to move on with life like me
2day is OUR day :]

wah....i like sayin pledge sia :p
but so?!
who cares?!....

it had been 34 dayz since i love edward
thinkin,talkin,screamin(in my brain) about him everyday
at least about 20 times his image pops out in my brain
and make my respiratory system jam....
watever~

im friggin insane now
ok....im alwayz insane but tis time is v v v v v v different!

ok...i shall explain why....
yesterday, siew mei n yihui meet up me at hougang mall
coz we are going to daryl's house for our class barbercue
but then,before we go his house....we go to the hougang mall roof top to turn our brainz around and round
hahahahahah!!!! yihui sayz she v v v dizzy and siew mei dont dare to play
hahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love da playground upstairs sia!!!!
after tis,,,,,we go daryl's house coz its gettin late
the barbercue was not v fun coz a lot of ppl never come
but thatz ok with me
wat drove me fuckin insane is that~
I SAW HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wah~~~~
i tink i shall stop here lah lor
i cnt take it anymore
coz now im in my mum studyin place usin their com
scared that i lose control in the public
scared ltr i lost my way back home
im losin my mind
he + edward...................
wah~~~
jialat........
tooo much!!!!
i shall end here and continue the situation in my next post
coz im v v v v v v v surely,honestly,mentally unstable now



ps: i miss andrea
i miss regina
i miss queenie

schooled today
still alive from the same old crap :]
2da i will not talk about how crap is school coz something bad and sad happen 2day
something terrible happen to my friend
cant tell who is it
coz im a secret protector :p
but i hope that everything will get better everyday 4 her
so to my friend...(dont worry toooooo much my dear)

nw...
im in my mum studying place
ok la
2day quite goood
still can let me use com nw

ok
nw i nothing to do so i wana write some of MY v v v v v PERSONAL THINGZ

THINKZ THAT I REGRET IN MY LIFE:
1) for being sooo fat at first(but erm...tt does nt mean that i will b going on diet,coz ttz stupid)
2)liking him(coz soooo many years already i still cant forget him.DAMN!)
3)lying to terrence about the truth of me(coz he is a great person/guy..not like those bastards outside!)
4)not studying hard like others(coz i tot that it will be cool if im different from others...but nw i hate to c my report slip)
5)backcombing my hair everyday(coz im addicted to it nw)
6)not smiling back to the cute guy[ang moh still!] who i met last week at my mum studying place who SMILE n LOOK at me for 2 times!!!but im tooo shy at tt time....i even make a 'i dont give a shit' face at him...but watever~
7)being a gal(be boy better!!!not need to think too much and i can imagine tt if im a boyz i bet tt i will look better :p)

THINKZ THAT I NEVER REGRET:
1)for not studying hard for PSLE and get into express and fulfil my mum wish at that time(coz i love being in NA too much)
2)being friendz with the sec1 gal gang last time.(really...no regret even they treat liting n maybe me bad ...that part of my life will remains as the most memorable memories...coz i really had sooo much fun at that time)
3)pranking people last time(i love it!!!but no one to prank now...i still hope that people can prank msg/call me)
4)always late 4 school(coz ttz accectable)
5)for playing truency all the time n skiping lesson
6)for sleeping in class
7)for making teachers vomit blood last time(coz ttz awesome!)
8)liking MARILYN MANSON last year
9)choosing to stay n help liting last time durin the sec2 quarrel
10)knowing hella good friendz like REGINA,ANDREA,QUEENIE(although dey had left 4 ite..WORK HARD GALZ!)
11)knowing liting,siew mei,yi hui,shiping,ee ni of coz
12)knowing him
13)loving EDWARD A WATCHING TWILIGHT
14)last and 4 ol....goin crazy :]

haiz...as for nw~
i really hope that my heart wont dies...
im tooo young 4 it to happen
if can i hope to really change everything

first of ol,
i wana say that 2day im FUCKIN ANGRY!!!!!!!!
coz some sluts kip raking about the past!
im bleedin furious lor
ji bye la hor
kip sayin tis things 4 so many years
repeatin n repeatin...
if u think that tokin about the seems to be a "glory" to u...'
think twice
coz i haven n i will never 4gt every single thing about wat happen durin tt time
ol the people only listen to your one-sided story
i one day i will surely tell out every single thing about u ol if i hear ol these fuckz again
u ol kip wanting to ruin liting reputation rite?!
WAT THE FUCK is wrong with u ol man?!
when in the hell she badmouth about u ol sia?!
n where the fuck she makes u ol du lan with her?!
n she is not a prositute u ignorant knob-ass~

second
im damn excited,crazy and happy 2day
i agree tt im mentally unstabled
but who cares?!
coz u knw y?
:]
cant tell...
:p
so cya!!!!
oya...i almost 4gt to announce that im goin bankrupt
erm...more specifically i think is really bankrupt
nvm...watever~
i dont give a shit

haiz...i miss regina,andrea,queenie soooooo bleedin much lor
dey say tt the more we grown up,
the more our heart dies....
i think this is totally true
if i am given 1 chance to go back to past n change everything
i will do it
and i will start to change everything frm sec1...